Vivien @ b00n' S dreamword **梦幻文言**
我爱做梦, 也爱幻想, 且让文字代替言语把梦表达出来!
I like dreaming, cause dreaming can make you mine!
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do, Sorry I just couldn't help myself,
I fell in love with you.
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Thanks to Valerie… I do really had a sad birthday.. so I will look forward for a better one next year.. haha..
had food poisoning the nite b4 birthday… keep vomiting for nothing… (don misunderstood.. I m not pregnant la…) and heard tat not only me not feeling well lor… val had attacked by the monster fever… while kian n mz oso kena.. so we concluded that is the telok gong’s food’ fault… haha.. but how come it can last so many days to cause my vomiting? Should be diarrhea wat? But I get constipation instead wor… weird！
Anyway, thanks for those who sms me for the birthday wishes: this included.. (according to the sequences) Chang You, Florence, shui yong daddy and hui hui (by msn) and the rest I forgot liao, … but the most important thing which I must mention is: thanks you wen jun… who called me this morning from uk glasgow when it was 12am there… he say he cant tahan to wait till I wake up… haha… anyway, really touch to receive his call… thanks dear… And next morning followed by sms from, Joanne, val, mimi yen, jian onn and 2 other frens… pity me only had so much fren to wish me…or ya… and another call from jb who din even sure which date is my birthday… I cant even get in to call HIM to wish me.. I doubt he is avoiding me now… sign~
While, at least my birthday does get ang pow from my dad and of course my boss… hahaha… the most happiest thing in the world to receive money! Cos I really so broke now… so ppl… if u happened to have extra money, keep for me in case I need to borrow from u… haha…
剪掉三千煩惱絲, 應該沒煩惱了吧!
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haha... before reach home, stop by at salon to had a hair-cut!
deng deng deng!
happy 22th birthday to myself... with a new hair look, should had a new start! gambate!
p/s: my mum say too short! but i think it's ok la... maybe hard to tie up only lor.. then u will see me bcome another lion queen... hohoho...
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你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
太愚昧
难道 笑容没了 距离有了 快乐也走了
还是真心死了 彼此不信任了
终於懂了 真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以复合！
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been playing this online puzzle game Orbox B since tuesday afternoon when MX introduce to me...
found tat quite challenging cos i been so long time never use my brain so frequent liao... haha.. anyway, tuesday solve 13 levels in 3 hours at com lab, yesterday solve another 10 levels in 3 hours as well cos it's harder when level increase ma...and today the remaining 7 levels took me about 4 hours to solve... anyway, i been sucessfully go through all 30 levels by myself... opps! actually i got seek solution for 2 levels (2 ONLY!) from the forum la.. haha, but definetely not the last few level.. cos nt many ppl post up the solution oso...) tat's y i keep posting the password on the chatter box to remind myself... haha...
anyway, whoever interested to train ur brain can try this.. i know is a bit outdate liao la... ppl play since donno how many months ago la... but no harm to try wat.. hihi...
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went to monash campus atm to get money yesterday, there was long queue and till my turn, the screen showed "SERVICE TEMPORARY UNAVAILABLE".. fuck! nevermind... still got RM30 with me... can survive another day though....
then... jus now went to atm again... saw the ppl in queue in front me manage to withdraw their money... then my turn? damn.... the machine reject my card again.... wtf.... the campus atm (under bumiputra) always bully me like tat... each time i wanna withdraw money sure make me go more than twice.... anyway, still not manage to get money from there... should try on at the bank's atm later... or else really need val to cover my expenses liao... hahahaha
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erm... jus finish the last session of medical micro lab, which is to identified the unknown mixture of organism provided... at first week, i saw a gram-positive cocci and gram negative rod... so choose to isolate at HBA plate and MAC plate lor... but?
when the second week back to lab, the gram stain go different d... i cant see any gram positive organism, which make me panic liao... so how? see the plate oso pengsan d....
NA plate.. only see 1 type of colony morphologies
HBA plate: again.. still cannot figure out.. though is a complete beta hemolysis...
MAC plate.. still only 1 colony morphology.. but at least is lactose non-fermenter, which give me a clue of either shigella, salmonella or proteus...
i know my microscopic technique is damn lousy... so end up kelam kabut when seeing the plates... ei~... then the second isolation of individual organism, the demonstrator don wanna give me HBA, which make me more panic and worry whether i missed out some other bacteria which i din isolated out during the previous session, mean i not manage to see this week... but then, when she provide me 2 XLD agar, then i think it's shigella n salmonella... but? when the last session, which using the Remal RapID ONE kit, our both XLD happened to have the same bacteria.. and end up isolated only ONE organism instead of TWO... so bek chek! anyway, we still manage to get the correct organism instead of some other contaminated flora... haha...
and the most pathetic story was the conversation between stacey and me...
Stacey: u very stress ah?
me: (nod) ya..
Stacey: y? u shouldn't wat.. this is ur second time taking this lab....
me: .......
of course she had recognised me la... but that really make me more stress... hai~~~ and when i told other about the conversation, everyone laugh so happily.... hai~
now need to figure out how to write a HD range micro full report with these lousy observation and results.... especially when this report may cover 10% of my internal marks... pray pray my previous report get a higher mark to cover this la...
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yeah~ finally get a new refridgerator in da house... a brand new Toshiba refrigerator! wuahahaha...
small but good enuff for 3 ppl use
and the most interesting part is.. my new housemate jean is so so excited to clear our all her stuff previously stored in her room and place all her drinks in! so fierce... for me? of course a bottle of cold plain water is obviously in... later should go buy some stock keep the fridge FULL haha...
see all those packet drink! of course the big bottle was mine
after having a fridge, we able to cook! (though cooking is not my interest nor val's) but our mini kitchen is now consider well equiped d... see, got microwave, kettles( so many). rice cooker and multi-cooker (there is another multicooker kept in the cupboard under the kettles...) and FRIDGE! hahahaha... 
the mini kitchen
still donno y m i so happy now... maybe cos i can have cold drink whenever i wan now gua... hihi...
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been chatting with one of my best buddies during secondary school and had keep close touch during pre-u and early of my uni life... jus tat uni life had exposed me to wider social circle, then less contact with her... and now she blame me for not entertaining her and din treat her as ji mui" jus becos i don wanna share my problem with her!
well.. when we were few years younger, we tend to share sth with frens... especially when one faced some terrible trouble or getting upset, we tend to get someone beside... but when growth, i realise tat sharing something unhappy to the other person would not end up become happy after u tell them. instead, it may happened tat u grab another ppl to share ur unhappiness, which make another ppl unhappy or worry, which i don wanna this to happen... so i started to keep everything myself... none of them knoe wat i think... even though my family oso not a good 1 to be shared.. NONE!
m i too childish? or jus tat she is not mature enuff to understand my situation?
dear, best fren doesn't mean i need to tell u everything... doesn't mean tat i must chat with u everyday once i say u online... does't mean tat i must see u or meet u or call u when i free... sometime we do need some own space.. to be alone... i like to be alone... then i can think a lot.. think wat had i done, wat i haven accomplish.. wat is my next step etc etc... and doesn't mean tat when i got problem i must see u and share with u...
i know u r living happily now... having a lovely family, lovely boyfren and your lovely mitsu (a dog),and graduating soon and start ur new phase of ur life soon... everything going well for sure...tat's y i don wanna tell u something tat may make u unhappy... when u got problem u share with me, doesn't mean tat i must do the same thing to u... not i different pulak... jus tat i don wanna trouble u.. jus tat! hope u can understand wat i mean (if u happen to read this)!
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skipped another stacey's medical micro tutorial today though she had warned us to attend. been scolded by val n MZ for this as well as advising me to back for class, but it seem no use on me... i know they are worrying me for another failing of the subject, it jus tat... i donno what i supposed to do now...
not tat i don wanna attend classes and tutorials, jus tat i don feel like going. looking back, most of my peer had been a step forward - some already in working field while others in their post graduate studies... and where m i? still at the same point where they left me... everyone is growing and i remain dormant!
i cant say everyone around me are pressuring me... but i jus don feel like doing anything... not interested in finding a part time job (though i m getting broke instead and need moneys really..) similarly for studies, i don feel like doing my revision though i know tat's wat i m supposed to do at this moment since i been skipping class... for my so-called temporary job (a beauty assistant?) i had done some work for the past few weeks, yet it doesn't means that i had complete my task... there's still long to go, and i donno when and where should i stop!
at this moment, i sort of giving up myself: not attending class, not doing revision, not doing my job, don care about families, don care about others, and don care bout myself... everyday i hang up till late nite and sleep till late morning or sometimes afternoon, skipped all the morning class, then had some brunch at corner, if still no class aftertat, back home and sitting in front of the pc, blogging, checking emails, chatting msn and end up my anime marathon till late nite... and the cycle repeat... such life make me feel useless... u can ask me to do sth... but wat can i do? i done have any particular skills tat make myself confidence to take up any job... be a tutor? my results are damn fucking and shamful to show to the principals compared to other tutors... sales representative? i had no any better communication skill to entertain those clients or customers... and i don like to approach ppl... i don have such braveness or sometime we call thick face... (i use peeling product so frequently tat make my skin thineer and thinner la...) had an office job? who wanna employed a person who need to take leave during the mid-day of weekdays to attend lab? doing MLM? oh no... i hate tat so much.... so... still being useless... sleeping and eating and spending money where the bank account is no longer stay at the 4 digit places not 3 digits anymore...
ya.. exam is nearer and nearer, and i suppose to start study or revising in order to let me graduate finally.... but? do i really can pass it? i have no any confidence on it... nor to other uncertainties that coming later... feel lost.. feel uncertained and tat's me- the useless stupid me!
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so...? wat m i doing here since some stupid fucking Anonymous called me slut?
well... i wonder who this Anonymous is? but tat's none of my business anywhere...
anyway, i been sitting in the campus computer lab since 12 noon till now.. (except for the 1 hour lunch break in between) and only went to washroom few times and the rest of the time is really sit still in front of the monitor... and...? doing nothing better than typing out come case studies about medical microbiology in the word file.. instead of jus bring to photocopy, i choose to type out cause i m broke! and this is also another way for me to force myself squeezing some information into my brain as a pre-revision practice.. haa....
erm... still got 1 month left to my final exam.. but i wonder there still have quiz or not? if not, then where is my 10% of assessment come from? don tell me the 10% goes to the final exam mark, then i really need to study hard liao... cos it means final stand cover 85% of my assessment... but don worry.. tat's jus a presumptive la... stacey oso haven told us the format.... neither mention about anything bout quiz or test or watever assignment or blar blar blar... hope she don be so blur until really forget about tat... then i really donno how to die for my exam liao....
so....? y m i still sitting here? waiting for my dearest housemate to go back together lor... i wonder she had faint in the lab d.... or vomit blood after confront with her 'colleague'??? or bully by her dearest legionella species???i donno.... jus plain wait lor... hungry..
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夜深人静，做在电脑前，已看了将近8个小时的动画。一个人坐在阳台，突然，需要一个人在身边，想起以前的种种，真的好想你就在我身边抱着我，安慰我，鼓励我。真的好想你。。。
是不是这样的夜晚，才会让我特别想起你？
该睡了，因为，只有在梦中，这才会实现！
I like dreamin
cause...
dreamin' can make you mine...
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went to meet the biotech n bioscience ex-coursemate, most of them the sot fm member la.. at sunway resort hotel for their convocation... when both val n me accompany mz to collect her gown, on the way, lot of ppl "ask us have u collect ur gown?", and we constantly answer "i m not graduating this year!".. feel so 感触！every 1 is graduating (i mean most of the frens we know), and we r still hanging around... at that particular moment, really felt like crying... y i cant graduate with them?
anyway, look forward next year convocation, which the shui yong whole family will wearing the gown and take photo together.. ya... the daddy and 3 shui yong beauties are graduating TOGETHER! yeah... can sot together at the same time! so jing, waiting u back to join us o!
ps: the photo will be upload later after collect from those with camera there... and i must emphasize our sot fm member, the ddly zeno... today he really look like an old professor after wearing tat gown...
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OMG! had a little chat with my lab partner and he told me a bad bad newz... our medical microbiology lab session had changes bit... which is I HAD LAB THIS COMING SATURDAY MORNING 9AM..
9am leh.. i wonder i can wake up on time at that day or not...
hai~ been skipping class for the past 2 weeks, 9am class and 11am class all SKIP..cos don feel like waking up.. not cant wake up, is don wanna wake up!!! the alarm actually been snooze for the whole half and hours and actually had awake, but jus don feel like going to campus and see those super junior attending class... cos too sien being the super senior there... jus as my nick stated: 凡事没有不能，只有不要!
don wanna go to class
don wanna do my revision (should do since i skip class)
don wanna work (for my aunt)
don wanna go home (too fed up)
don wanna meet ppl (too sien~)
don wanna sleep at the proper time (currently following the paris timezone, which the sleeping time is always after 4 am...
don wanna do anything... jus nth....
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yeah! my sunway daddy aka ives aka shuiyong H2 change look wor...
nah.. this is his 死老爷's look before i went back for merdeka holiday! ( he ask me to take 1 ha...before his hair cut)
and after 1 weeks din see him, he bcome like tat liao~~
look soooooo..... YOUNG? yeah.. bit too unmatch his actual age liao la... hahaha and the most 顶不顺thing is... he keep asking me take his photo and... send to his phone by bluetooth.. nvm... then later even worst.. somemore wanna sent to his email.. i wonder he might use tat photo to interview for gigolo???(kidding la..) hahahah!
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straightly speaking! i m so fucking fed up with my home d! i don really feel like staying at this home any minute more.... so far i spent less than two hours in da house at night b4 my parents slept.. i found that i hardly can communicate well with my mum... especially when it comes to financial topic and career topic... y? i donno... and i don like her suspicious habit, and her imagination.. keep thinking tat i doing sth the offence her will.. or watever! like jus now, i jus only oppose her opinion regarding "being a middle age man is hard to find a new job" topic, then? i donno where she had think of... and end up breaking her anger to my brothers... and the angers of course turn back to me (from my brother la)... anger cycle?
n there is nothing better for my dad oso... i cant really talk to him more than 15 minutes, cos his speech will automatically turn to those "amway" style and talk like a sales man again... which i truly annoyed by it... i cant even had a peace dinner with them at all... tat's y i so hate those MLM ppl.... fucking MLM!
luckily i had plan to go back to sunway after another 12 hours... wuahahaha.. no eye see! better run away than staying here... as expected, i stil haven settle my financial problem with my mum, haven settle the job problem with my aunt, yet, it turns out better than expected, at least i still had sth to do, but not tat tough as b4... haha...
as conclusion, i so fed up of being come back HOME... this is not my home anymore... it feel like a hotel which i come back n sleep for few night once in a while... so ppl, don ask me when i going back hometown... i wont feel like coming back unless i got sth important to settle down here...
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